“You nasty, mean, selfish little girl,” the mother screamed. “You ruined everything. Now the group won’t have a project today because you ate the gum drops. Take off that uniform. You don’t deserve...
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As I write this, I remember the original experience and the EMDR experience and yet energetically it has changed for me for the positive. Through the EMDR I came to understand that the shame and condemnation was not mine to carry. I was just a little girl and she the parent. Her job was to teach and lead. Children don’t have the ability to think through things. I was a little girl, with a little girl’s brain and a little girl’s body.
I am grateful for the experience of healing through this and while I don’t look forward to going back into the memories, I look forward to reprogramming the brain through EMDR so I am free from the effects and triggers of the memory.