Healing From an Affair PDF ebook full download. I wish I could do it over again. Either have moved out and stayed with her, or never moved out at all. I have hurt my AP and she deserves better. She deserves someone that can go out with her anytime they choose, someone that she can call when she has a bad day. Not someone that has to sneak away to call or text her. But we have this connection. We are soulmates. We know this will probably not happen now. Maybe one day. But I went home, and need to see if my wife and I can overcome this. If we can repair this marriage. I do love my wife. And I love another woman.