From my experience, the healthier way would be to create something positive for myself. The right suite for my abilities, possibilities, various capacities and resources; a suite that will carry me on the path of realistic intentions and support me.
The question is – how do you do that? I think I can help quite a great deal here. The other question is – are you interested? I’m not going to sell you anything, I just need to know if YOU want to ask the questions, because I know mine are usually difficult to start with.